I just wanna write tonight.
I dont know where I am going. But I hope as I continue to travel and pave this road that you join me. Take my hand and give me the strength to keep walking when I am doubting my direction. I am 19 and trying to figure this thing called life out. I know I cant do it alone so I implore you, take my hand and walk with me.
I have thought about telling you this for a long time now. I have been waiting for the right time. Frankly, I do not think that there ever will be a right time. I still do not know what I want to say exactly, but I am going to try my best. So here goes everything.
I do not think that I have always felt like this. I have felt like this for a while though. At first I ignored my feelings. I have always been told not to act on my emotions. So I waited. I waited till I knew for sure that this is what I wanted. I did not want to ever doubt I was making the right decision. I am confident in my decision.
The word love has been thrown around and watered down in our society. It is like we are expect to swoon when that special someone tells you that they love you right after they finish telling you how much the love cookies, their phone, and rock climbing. The fact of the matter is that we do not really lovecookies, our phones and rock climbing but rather we like them, we enjoy them. I do not want to be compared to a snickerdoodle, droid or an sport where you hold on to a cliff for dear life. I have spent much time and effort to not fall into this facade that it is okay to use the word loveso often. My favourite cookie is white macadamia, I do not have the latest or greatest phone but I am grateful that I have one and although basketball will always be my “go to” sport, rock climbing is amazing and I enjoy doing it. In short, this is a big deal for me.
I love you.
You are my support. Without you I am weak, depressed and confused. Those times when we were mad at each other and were not talking all I wanted to do was talk to you and tell you how I was feeling. You are the only person I have ever in trusted with my life. I have given everything I have to you and I do not regret it. Every time that I put myself down, you are right there to bring me up. Any time I say ‘anxiety’ or ‘panic attack’ you are there in a second to calm me down. Sometimes I think it is crazy that I put so much faith in to a human being because after all, all human beings have flaws . But because I love you, I don’t care how risky it is. I am willing to risk my heart if you will hold it for as long as you can.
Your opinion is appreciated <3
So is this a thing now?
Can I expect a marriage proposal soon or what?